Been thinking a lot lately about relationships and trust. Obviously a relationship won't be strong without trust, and I'm trying to figure out why sometimes I insist on carrying on, even when I know I've been lied to and there are things that happen that hurt, but at the same time I'm willing to overlook them and live in denial just because I want so dearly for the relationship to work out how I had planned it to. And even after I've received further confirmation to the deceit, I still want to just forget about it and move on, even though I know in the end it'll just bring me further heartache. Why do I do this to myself? Am I really so afraid of the unknown that I'm willing to put myself through such intense pain?
Sigh... I don't know. A part of me honestly believes I'm going crazy. Like honest to goodness insanity. I've been so close to the edge lately and just hurting and blah, I don't know.
Well there's my rant for now. Not much to this post, but I had to let it out.
Till next time,
Steff
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