Slut

Steff

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1. First of the firsts. Most exciting. Set the stage for what was to come. First abandonment
2. Short, unpleasant, shallow
3. First. Kind, but still deceitful.
4. Surprise. Best nick name. Overly emotional
5. Mediocre, happened more than it should. Good heart.
6. On top of a mountain. Often have reminders of it. Slightly foolish.
7. Somewhat embarrassing, should have let this one go. Not worth the trouble it lead to.
8. First barrier crossed. Liked the pretense of "friends".
9. Had promise, nothing came of it.
10. Surprise and a mistake. Changed things.
11. Complete and utter surprise, completely caught off guard.... twice.
12. Not worth the trip.
13. Had such high hopes, seemed perfect. Way too arrogant. Played to be better, but was just the same.
14. Second barrier crossed. First. Broke something.
15. Worst. Nothing good to say about it. Mistake
16. Third barrier crossed. Pushed over the edge. Regret.
17. Escape. Needed to cope. Mentally absent.
18. Forgettable. Still coping
19. Forgotten
20. Tried to take it by force. Continued to try and get it.
21. Sweet, but the same as others.
22. Summer foolishness. Fill a void.
23. Surprise. Unsure about feelings at the time.
24. Mistake. Anger. Caught off guard. Used.
25. Fourth barrier crossed. Most unsure of all. Attachment and bond still there. Most difficult.
26. Forceful. Immature.  Creepy.
27. Weird. F.
28. Irresponsible. Hypocrite. Ick.
29. Liar. Fake.
30. Mistake. Roots for change.
31. Worry over nothing. Same as others. Didn't give in.

Steff