Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Chambers

Under lock and key
Other forces finally aside
Going deeper
Reflection
And then it comes
Giving up what we want the most
for a momentary pleasure
and you can't get the moment back
it's gone
his smell left behind
to prod in your mind
the mark he left
as a painful reminder of the self betrayal

Steff

Friday, October 15, 2010

...

From the moment we're born, we've been fooled. We're told that we can be anything we want, we can get anything we want, just as long as we're willing to work for it. That everyone has an equal opportunity for happiness in this life. I call BS. Some people are just naturally gifted with more and will get farther based on that, and it has nothing to do with how hard they work or what's in their "heart". For example, the immigrant workers who move here, and work their butts off in fruit fields. Pretty sure their work is some of the most difficult. Are they moving up the social structure at all? Nope, not really.
I'm sick of the "Disney" mentality. That we're all princesses, and that all we have to do is wish, and our perfect prince charming will come along, and that we're all entitled to this "perfect" man. We fool ourselves into thinking that we deserve something like that. We don't deserve anything. We get what life gives us and we do what we can with it.
I'm tired of people telling me that I'm "special", that I'm an amazing person. It doesn't mean anything. Everyone who's ever said that to me is no longer in my life. Apparently how "amazing" I am just isn't enough to keep them interested or to stay in my life.
I'm just so sick of false expectations.

Steff