Anticipation

Funny how one's mentality changes when they're waiting for something. I'm now expecting something, and the wait is a little longer than expected, and it's driving me crazy, like emotionally I am breaking down. I feel kinda pathetic saying that, but it's true. I mean, it's not like I'm waiting for something material, it's for a person, and the longer I wait, the more I worry. Why the tardiness? What could be going on to cause this? The only possible things that come to my mind aren't good ones and it's wearing on me. I just don't really know. I've been waiting for this so long.... longer than I think is really fair. Why has this been such a challenge for me? and now that it's so close, I keep feeling like something's gonna happen and it's not gonna work out.

I don't know, I'm just driving myself crazy.

Steff